Just watching If You Really Knew Me. Damn, I cried. I can relate so well to some of the people. Not that I ever get picked on or bullied at, but how they feel about themselves.
I’m such a fucking mess. I’m complicated. I always try to put other people before myself. I’m like never truly happy anymore. I’m always all happy and shit on the outside, but nobody ever knows how I really feel on the inside. I don’t really cry easily, but some stuff really gets to me. When people call me ugly etc, I know they’re joking, but sometimes it really gets to me because I already feel ugly, and I feel like they’re just mocking me. I try so hard to be happy at times but I always fuck everything up. I’m such a fuck up, nothing goes right. I have amazingly good friends who are always there for me, but sometimes I feel like nobody gets me at all, or understands me, so I keep everything to myself. I’m seriously not good enough or anything or anyone, I try, I fuck up, so fuck everything.
